Well, it’s almost time for bed, but right now I’m just relaxing on the couch at home in Tampa and loving the post-college life!! I went to Maryanne’s senior achievement banquet at Gaither tonight…where she won many awesome awards!! Hmm, speaking of awesome, they should have just made an “Awesome Award” and given it to her. On account of being awesome. I love my little sis!!
Hmm, I feel my vocabulary suffers a bit when I’m lacking sleep.
Anyways, in other news, I’m still trying to find an apartment in Houston. You may think that would be easy, but it becomes far more difficult when my only source of information is the dreadfully unreliable Internets. It’s even more frightening to realize I will be living in Houston in practically a month!!! Whoa.
And in other other news, I’m going back to Gainesville tomorrow…for what will most likely be my last hurrah!! Mm, I’m going to miss Gville. A lot. And by Gville, I mean I’m going to miss my friends. And as always…you know who you are. I don’t cry(seriously, I don’t. I don’t think I have since I was a kid)…but if I did…well, just thinking about leaving you all…it’s tough. Real tough. And yes, I know that there are lots of awesome people out in the world and that there are lots of awesome people in Houston and that I will meet lots of awesome people there this year. But I want to be with YOU ALL – my awesome friends that I have gotten so close to these past few years and will so dreadfully miss when I move.
…and now I’m getting sentimental. SAVE ME!!
It’s just that I’m jumping into such a new life…college was really just like an adult version of high school. I still had all my high school friends and school is…well, school. Now I will be starting an actual job. I will know almost no one in Houston. And I have yet no idea where I’ll be going to church(actually this is what I’m the most nervous about!!). But you know what? I will not be discouraged or anxious. Because no matter what I feel now(stupid emotions!! I wish I was like Spock from Star Trek…cool, calm and completely rational), I know that this coming year in Houston will be filled with awesomeness. Because God has so decreed.
I do so wish I wasn’t so “emotional” though. But, nothing I can do about that.
Alas.
…and wow, this entry is really random. Apologies!!
And I also wonder how many times I’ve used “awesome” in this entry. I have a bad feeling it may be in the double digits.
Oh and on yet ANOTHER note…I have henceforth decided I will not like girls. You of the female persuasion are SO much fun as friends and all…but seriously, it’s so much harder when I start liking you! Very distracting. Totally not cool. Thus I have decided that my emotions are null and void and that I will not like girls. So much easier. So much less painful. The end.
…if only it were that easy!!!! But seriously, I have realized that I need to stop thinking that a girl is the answer to problems. False. A girl has just as many problems and thoughts and feelings and emotions and hopes and prayers and dreams as I do… and by not realising that, I’m diminishing her status as a person and child of God!! And secondly, a relationship isn’t just about me. Actually, it’s not much about me at all. It’s about how we can serve God together…and then serve each other unselfishly and joyously!! So really, the moment I start thinking it’s all about me, I’m toast. So WHY oh WHY do I persist in focusing on this mythic relationship with a sweet girl when I really need to just focus on my REAL relationship with my LORD Jesus Christ?? Because I’m stupid, that’s why. But oy. I didn’t mean to go into all that now. All I can say is…I praise my holy and almighty Father for all He has done for me!!! When all is said and done, that’s really all I care about.
And again…wow. I really need to not write entries when I’m about falling asleep! Thus, I will end this literary failure and get some sweet sleep!
Something Weird 