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Had a pretty sweeeet day today, despite the mountain of work I have to do looming over me. It was absolutely gorgeous day outside with the breeze blowing slightly and the sky just the right tint of blue and the grass just perfectly green…me and Cindy had lunch at Larry’s(I had a Philly cheesesteak, mmmmm) and then afterwards just lay outside on the grass outside the Union and stared at the wondrous sky as the clouds raced by. I gotta say, makes me remember how blessed we truly are!!

I’ve felt like I’ve been in such an odd mood lately…I think it’s the impending exit to college and entrance to workforce that’s just making me realize how much my life is about to change! I feel like I’m at the center of the whirlwind…a whirlwind of fierce stars and bright fires…and I am walking in the midst of the churning seas, feeling the salt spray on my face yet not being knocked down by the waves…and I’m atop the clouds staring down at the patchwork ground beneath and leaping from the heights of jagged mountain peaks to the unknown earth below…and I’m feeling the wind of destiny in my hair and knowing that my time is at hand…and I see the miniature suns dart around me and can feel the heat of their passion and I reach out my hand…and I walk through the whirlwind…and the clouds stop their frenzied dance and I see a shred of black velvet sky and I see the stars.

And that probably makes no sense. I just wrote what I was thinking…and I guess what I’m trying to say is that I feel like so much is in front of me and I have no idea what it is. But you know what? Because God loves me ever so much…I know this….my destiny will be good. My destiny IS good. Because I have an everlasting Father. Amen and Amen!!

Well, after a simply MARVELOUS spring break, I am back at school…

Actually, I’m at the Christian Study Center(AKA where-I-always-update-from) and sippin’ on my peppermint mocha and trying very hard not to study for my exam I have tomorrow. I’m currently waiting for one of the powerpoints to finish downloading and then it’s more study time for me! It’s really quite aggravating having two exams the week after spring break, but what can you do? And really, I haven’t been studying as much as I should have been(even though I got up early this morning) – I’ve just been reading and writing a lot with some studying thrown in every once in a while. I do love my Monday mornings though – not having class until 2 – because I have all the time in the world to have a nice leisurely morning…

And now it is lunch time. Yes. I will hopefully post an entry later detailing the AWESOMENESS that went on during spring break! Let’s just say this: our crew had amazing times every day, whether it was talking to various relatives or other friends…or visiting beaches and getting gloriously sunwarmed…or playing volleyball and dominating it up…or playing three disc golf courses in beautiful parks…or kayaking through calm sparkling waters…or reading through God’s most holy and inspired Word. Really. How can you get a much better spring break than that?????

And now. It really is lunchtime.

It’s official, my final spring break of college has begun!!! The Great Florida Tour of ’09 is here!! We’re only one day in…and it’s already been…pure awesomeness!!! I survived my lit test on Thursday(my only test of the week – Rob had four midterms!) and so yesterday I spent some time cleaning my room before heading off to Ocala to start off our adventure with a blast!! Me and Rob and Galan and Laurie and Marianne and Katheryn and Jess T. all drove south to Ocala(stopping on the way at Payne’s Prairie to watch a most excellent sunset!). We eventually made it to Ocala where we stayed at Laurie’s house!

We had a magnificent evening of eating home-cooked lasagna and salad and good conversations before relaxing in the living room drinking coffee and listening to Rob serenade us on the piano…it was most relaxing just being with friends(and friends’ parents!) and talking and enjoying a beautiful night!!

After a good night’s sleep, got up this morning to a yummy breakfast of eggs and bacon and biscuits and more coffee and then we explored Laurie’s yard! And before you think that exploring a yard couldn’t have been that interesting, Laurie’s family has some thirty acres of property, including cows and everything! So we walked around for a while, before discovering some awesome mounds that made for a perfect mini-game of capture the flag! After we wore ourselves out playing that, we went back to the house and cooled off by sticking our feet in the pool. At this point, Mary and Allison came down from Gville and then we all went off to Rainbow Springs!

We spent a happy afternoon there playing frisbee, pseudo-volleyball, and swimming in the springs…topped off by a nice picnic lunch. Nothing better than eating outside in the beautiful early-spring air!! As the sun set, we decided it’d be good to head back to Gainesville, so we made the drive back, whereupon me and Rob and Galan discovered our apartment drastically needed cleaning…especially since the girls were going to eat dinner with us at our place! So we did a quick(yet thorough!) cleaning of our place and then the girls(Laurie, Katheryn, Mary, Allison and Jess) came back and made a yummy dinner of spaghetti, garlic bread, zucchini..mmmm!! My stomach was most impressed!

The topping off of the night was the best part…we read(well, actually Rob) the first four chapters of John(we’re going to be reading through that this spring break, YES) and then we indulged in some coffee and more good discussions. Wow. God is good. And that’s pretty much all I can say.

The woman said to Him, “I know that Messiah is coming(He who is called Christ); when that One comes, He will declare all things to us.” Jesus said to her, “I who speak to you am He.” – John 4:25-26

Well, I’m at the CSC sipping on my mocha and I should be writing a poem for my lit homework tomorrow. To motivate myself, I read through all my old poems…quite a fascinating slide-show of my past! Anyway, I realized I hadn’t posted the poem I wrote for my last lit homework, so thought I’d post that now. Comments appreciated!!

I am searching for myself
in the darkness of the storm
in the riot of the trees
in the crying of the wind.
I am cold and I am lost.

I climb forever up the mount
built of fallen memories
built of fated lovers’ bones
built of bloody victories.
I rise up and I fall yet.

I seek the ever changing sky
in the sighing of the wind
in the quiet of the trees
in the starkness of the storm.
I am here and I am not.

One more cry of deepest pain
One more cry of utmost glee
One more cry in fallen rain
Why oh why can I not see?
Why oh why am I denied?
Give me now a dance to live!
Give me now a trance to love!
Give me now a chance to be.

Yo, just thought I’d write a random entry…because I so feel like it. I’m at the Circa lab right now, relaxing until my energy management class in a few minutes. I should probably walk over there now, but I’m not exactly looking forward to the two hours I’ll be spending there. Ehh. On the other hand, I AM looking forward to lunch with Deanna and the voluntary bloodletting that will take place later this afternoon!

We had a sweeet lit class today where we got to talk about fantasy, yayyy! We’ve been reading this book Wizard of Earthsea. Not bad, but quite dark and thematic…it has a solitary hero who goes around by himself. And personally, my favorite books are the character-driven books that have very realistic and fun interpersonal interactions(Lord of the Rings, yes. Wheel of Time, YES). Hence, I did not enjoy the book much. But the discussion, on the other hand, was as awesome as always! And yes, I did finish my lit homework finally yesterday. I made a cool little “comic-strip” detailing the beginning of a grand fantasy adventure titled…wait for it…”Shadow of the Stars”. I think that’s pretty epic-sounding, neh?

Alright, I should maybe go to class so I won’t be late. Even though I still don’t want to. I’m actually sorta hungry too…even though I did have nice crunchy bacon for breakfast today! And my coffee was rather delicious too. Sadly I will have to wait a few more hours for lunch. Wow, this is really bad that I’m trying to think of more to say so I don’t go to class. Kids, don’t do what I do and go to class. It’s good for your health. Ok, enough coffee-induced randomness. Time to take flight and manage some energy! Peace.

Peppermint mocha time!

Soo, I’ve been at the christian study center relaxing, reading and enjoying life these past few hours…oh how I love to read and enjoy a good cup of coffee!! And for some reason I was rereading some of my old entries here(think high school era!) and I found this old song thing I did…and I thought I should redo it now to reflect my changes in music taste….so here ya go!

List your current six favourite songs, then tag six other people that have to do the same.

1. Starlight – Muse
2. Love Story – Taylor Swift
3. Supermassive Black Hole – Muse
4. College Kids – Relient K
5. Low – Flo Rida
6. Violet Hill – Coldplay

And yes, there are two Muse songs. I’m on a Muse kick right now, ‘k? I would have put more, but I thought I would try diversifying a bit…I also almost put more Taylor on there, but I refrained…

Now, I shall go back to drowning myself in espresso…and enjoying this delightful day!! Farewell all!!

Holy, holy, holy is the LORD God, the Almighty, Who was and Who is and Who is to come…Worthy are You, our Lord and our God to receive glory and honor and power; for You created all things, and because of Your will they existed and were created. – Revelation 4:8,11

I am so amazingly and incredibly blessed! I’ve had an excellent weekend all in all, but tonight really tops it off. I don’t think I can even really describe it in words, but was at prayer and praise tonight at church…and it was just heavenly. Truly, worshiping God through prayer is an amazing thing!! I prayed with Shari and Deanna for a while and all I can say is that God is so good. So good to allow us to pray to Him(and He answers!!) and so good for the friends and encouragement He gives to us. I wish I could find better words to express myself. I can’t. All I can say is that my heart overflows with gratitude for the goodness of the Lord!

Why am I writing…I don’t know!! I just thought I should, since I’m in the Christian Study Center right now, and it seems I do half my entries from here. Maybe it’s because I’m trying to escape my homework. Yep, I’m sure that’s it. Even though my homework right now is pretty fun. I need to write about a “first” of my adolescent life in either a short story or poem…I have no idea what to write about. Any ideas??

And in other news, the weekend was pretty sweet(as always!!) Last night after Prayer and Praise(in which we did NOT watch the Super Bowl…didn’t really care what happened there), me and Rob and Drew came back to our place and chilled, watching the Ten Commandments. Epicness. Yes.

Ok, I really actually want to write a long post just about the nature of life and emotions and random stuff like that…but I think instead I will pour my muse’s energy into doing my lit homework. Once I think of an idea…hmmm….

Back to staring out the window into the rain. Farewell, all!!

Such a great day!!! I am going to sleep soon, but I just had to write a few lines on how lovely today was!! Woke up today and made some bacon and hot chocolate…and then me and Rob and Andrew just chilled at our apartment relaxing and NOT doing homework. Then for some reason I felt pretty tired…so took about a three hour nap. GLORIOUS. After that, I felt so awesome…apparently, I really needed the sleep!

Later this evening, went over to the Lebos house for Mrs. Lebo’s 50th birthday surprise party!!! It was great times(and she was indeed surprised!!). I had a most enjoyable time…meeting a bunch of the Lebos’ cousins, hanging out with tons of awesome people, drinking way too much coffee, playing Assassin, watching crazy homemade videos, making more crazy videos, dancing in the kitchen…fun times or WHAT. I am indeed blessed to have such good friends!!! God is so good to me…He always has been and I am confident that He always will be. Have a great night, all!!