Well, it’s almost a new year…this has been a good one. But it’s time to move on.

I was going to write some long, philosophical-like entry here, but I don’t really feel like it. It’s odd, though…when we were little, when I was a kid, time seemed to go so slow. I remember calculating my graduation year and thinking, “Wow! 2005, that’s so far away!” And now…it’s here. Tomorrow will be the year I end one era of my life…and begin another. I don’t understand how time goes so quickly…it seems just yesterday I was starting high school. But, I’m ready to go. I’ve taken all that high school can dish out…all it can punish me with. I’m ready. And tomorrow…that year begins.

Meh, I did almost start a long speech-thing…I’ll stop now. Really.

I’ve felt so tired today, I don’t know why…really hope I’m not getting sick right before school starts up again. School. Blah. Some years I’ve looked forward to school after a long break. This year? No way. I’ve enjoyed my break to the fullest…so much do I wish I didn’t have to go back. A whole semester of meaninglessness…

And now, almost midnight…really don’t feel like staying up. Just want to read some and fall asleep…mm, winter break is beautiful. Sweeney, sorry about not coming to your party…I did want to, believe me(if you think about it, Jess, you can probably figure out the reason for my absence).

I’m in a weird mood now – hate it when I don’t understand how or what I’m feeling – I feel sad for some reason, I suppose it could be that I don’t really want to grow up. Yet I do. In some ways, I wish everything could stay like it is right now. But no. I don’t really want that. And then, I’m so happy to be alive…today I was playing football with my family – after a catch for a touchdown, I just knelt down and looked at the sky for a moment – it was so big and beautiful. And I feel like that now, how I did looking at it, glad to be living.

Wow…if I was smart, I probably would delete that whole previous paragraph…but I don’t really care.

This is enough – I’m off to do something else…reading is my tonic. 🙂

Happy New Year, all!! 2005 is almost here – I’ll see you all on the flip side.

For a child will be born to us, a
son will be given to us;
And the government will rest
on his shoulders;
And His name will be called
Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God,
Eternal Father, Prince of Peace.
There will be no end to the increase
of His government or of peace,
On the throne of David and over his kingdom,
To establish it and to uphold it
with justice and righteousness
From then on and forevermore.
The zeal of the Lord of hosts
will accomplish this.
-Isaiah 9:6-7

*is happy* Very true words…^^

Life is goood…

But isn’t it always? 😉

Just a quick update here…

Christmas break = total awesomeness. I don’t know if I’ve ever truly appreciated it before, or what, but this year, I’m just so HAPPY to be unshackled from school stuff…no homework, no essays, no projects, no tests…I’m loving it. And I actually can appreciate life now, just relaxing in my home, doing stuff with my sisters, reading the books that I want to read, taking walks with my dog, riding my bike, feeling the chilly winter air, playing football, seeing the sun, and knowing that it’s CHRISTMAS TIME. Yep, I know and hate the commercialized feast that Christmas has become…but I just forget all that. Christmas is Christmas, a time to remember what Christmas really is, what it really means…it’s a time when I can be more at peace with myself(and others :P)…yeah, I’m a sentimental guy. Live with it. Anyway, this whole time of year just makes me happy…please don’t spoil it for me. 🙂

Anyway…I did say this was an update, neh? Well, not a lot to talk about, I’ve been taking it easy…since last Friday(last day of exams – I only took two, which I totally OWNED), I’ve been living the good life. Which I’ve mostly described in the preceding paragraph…Saturday, was at Craig’s Hanukkah party of awesomeness(and yes, I don’t know how to spell Hannukkah; if I did spell it right, I’d be shocked). The party mostly consisted of Halo goodness…I actually did decent in one of the games…woo for that. Sunday was church and Christmas caroling at nursing homes…much fun – I feel so sad for some of the people in nursing homes, who have no one that cares, no one who comes and visits them…:( But, it made me happy that we(our church group) could sing for them. And some of them sang along!

Monday and Tuesday consisted of shopping for Christmas presents and random items for myself – when not shopping, just hung out at home…….Today, I helped some friends from church move – they had a whole truckload of stuff – took me and two other guys a couple hours to unload it – people sure do accumulate a lot of junk. And tonight, went to Golden Corral with my family and a friend from church.

And so has been my break thus far…it’s been good.

And Christmas is in TWO DAYS!

Yes, I am a child. I don’t care. 😛

TWO DAYS!

Ran into a little suprise today…checked my UF application status, and this is what I found:

Congratulations! Your application to the University of Florida for the 2005 FALL term has been approved. You will receive official notification and additional materials in the mail. We look forward to seeing you on campus in the very near future!

Never expected this so soon…seeing as I didn’t apply Early decision. But I’m not complaining. 😀

*contented sigh*

It’s just absolutely wonderful…now that school is done…three weeks of utter relaxation and Christmas fun. 

Today, last day of regular school…awesome. We did absolutely nothing in any of my classes. I loved AP Chem…food and football. Nothing beats playing football on a cool, crisp day, wind lightly blowing…we played football during 5th period, and then we played during lunch as well, outside the patio…

When I got home, I took a nice long bike ride…it is so BEAUTIFUL outside!! Finally, finally, the weather is nice and cool…it was in the 40-50s today – lovely weather. I wish it was always like this…but right now, I’m just happy.

Now, been reading LotR on my bed…so peaceful and nothing to do…and listening to Trans-Siberian Orchestra goodness(props to Ally for the music of awesomeness!). I think I’ll read a little more…but am getting tired, so might just go to bed early…

Merry Christmas, everyone!! All my friends, you guys rock. Christmas season is indeed a wonderful time of year…
-James

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There’s always something more
waiting for me to give up, surrender,
but I didn’t, couldn’t, wouldn’t,
because I had to keep on, had to
persevere.

And now I feel the cold,
and I don’t know what to think.
Why. Why is there no warmth,
why am I still going.

There’s something else to shout for-
I see it, I feel it-
I must keep on, must
persevere, persevere.

Had a pretty bad day, and just feel…down. Don’t know if anything good happened today at all…so glad to be home, even then…

I need a nap..

Well…Thanksgiving break is coming to an end. This makes me sad.

Even though the break was filled with tons and tons of calc homework. If I could, I almost think I would get out of calc…the work is ridiculous…teacher is ridiculous, etc. 88-problem exam review. And that was only the first quarter!! We’re getting another exam review this week. *sigh*

Calc work partly ruined my break, but other than the many-odd hours spent doing it, having no school was fun. Much reading and sleeping took place, along with a little work on the side. I made $62 on Wednesday, working at a gourmet sandwich shop(Wrights Gourmet – anyone been there?). Money is always good…now I can actually buy Christmas presents! Thanksgiving Day was very nice…I did the obligatory caculus work in the morning, but after that, ’twas a fun day. Me and my family went to some friends’ house – great time there. I love eating…there was turkey, potatoes, dressing, cranberries, asparagus, blackberry pie, apple pie, pumpkin pie…yum! Afterwards, me and my two younger sisters played around outside – so awesome because I haven’t had time to play with them in ages. I just loved relaxing for one day…

The rest of my break was a mix of good(reading/sleeping) and bad(calc). Saturday was LotR party…full of elvish fun.

Ok, that about sums up my long-awaited update…hm? Not long-awaited? Well, at least I did update.

Public Annoucement:
This Saturday, my church is having a Christmas banquet – there will be food and door prizes(most of them are pretty good, too), and singing. Speaking of singing, there will be some songs sung by a mini-choir…and I WILL BE IN IT! Yes, that’s right – me singing. So let me know if you want to come. Tickets are $8…but that’s not that much, since you get a full dinner and entertainment(me singing)!

G’night, all,
-James

Slight modification of a poem entered into a contest. Let me know what you think.

No, it can’t be true, it can’t be.
I know that I am light, not he.
Yet we are linked, linked by a
common bond, tied to one – destiny.

I feel the shadows lightly touching,
I feel the pain, reaching from his being.
Dark thoughts, dark light, dark night,
what is he feeling, what is he seeing.

He is Dying!
I must do it, I must sacrifice.
I’ll take it all – before he dies.
Darkness, take me. Leave my brother be.
A cold chill and a hint of dark.
I am afraid.

My soul is darkening, my vision fades
my light is going, my spirit wanes,
Darkness eating my soul, the pain.

The cold, the void, the feeling
of the burning star – piercing the night
The blackness rises, the darkness sends me reeling,
My brother – my brother, you are now
The light.

It’s definitely not as good as it could be…but it’s tolerable. *shrugs*

Update forthcoming.
-James

Happy Thanksgiving, one and all!

I had a great day and hope all of you did as well – nothing’s better than a day when one can relax with friends and family…and just enjoy life. I’m thankful for so many things, but I’m extra-thankful for all of you guys, my friends. Thanks for always being there for me. 🙂

Again, happy thanksgiving! Hope no one ate too much turkey…